Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Phobe.

Everyone has their own little quirks: likes and dislikes, favorites, fears, and habits. Like a mom would say, those differences are what make you special and make the world go 'round. Yeah ok mom.

One thing I am particularly embarrassed about (besides the difficulty I have spelling the word "embarrassed") is my little touch of claustrophobia. It's embarrassing because it's irrational and I consider myself a pretty rational person. So sitting here, rationally and decisively typing on my proven MacBook, I can recognize that it is silly for my heart to race and palms to sweat as I eerily prophesy the imminent collapse of that way-too-close-to-covering-my-whole-head blanket leading to my terrifying suffocation and likely death all in about 9 seconds. Yes, I sit here and exclaim the ludicrousness of these whims, but in the situation where the confines are far too close, those whims evolve into distinctively real, lugubrious possibilities; the only rational thing to do is to be afraid! My mind shrieks: "You dummy! If you don't untangle yourself from this mess you and I will both surely be squished to death!" And who am I to ignore such a sinister threat? As rapidly as possible, I extract myself from the "situation." It's the only reasonable thing to do.

So what portentous premonitions do other otherwise rational minds concoct? I certainly do not want to imagine lest I get any foreboding ideas.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I, Janelle Marie, a happy healthy 24 year old girl/woman/lady/thing am so paralyzingly afraid of the dark that it is absurd. I still sleep with a nightlight and if Thomas isn't home then I sleep with the TV on too.
When I found out that I'll be staying in my mom's old room when I come home I panicked. That room is windows 3 out of 4 walls and they overlook the yard that has terrified me since childhood. I know for a fact that someone is lurking behind that tree/bush out in the yard, just staring up at me through the window.
I have horrible night vision which only lends to the phobia that things are most definitely lurking around/under/behind/above/inside all the dark nooks, crannies, and corners.
This phobia is exacerbated by the fact that my husband thinks it's hilarious to hide in dark places and jump out at me just to see if I'll wet myself. This little stunt only became funny to him when he learned of my fear and jumpiness. Nice, huh? x_x