Decisions

I'm a pretty non-commital person, lacking in a few decision-making skills. Where do you want to go for coffee? I don't care. What do you want for dinner? You pick. What should our Microbiology research project be on? Oh, doesn't matter to me--choose whichever one you want. Don't get me wrong, I'm all over things that really matter. If an important decision is necessary, I'll make it with appropriate consideration and little hesitation. An overly farty husband? Hit him and kick him out of the room immediately.

One thing that needs no deliberation is how I feel about dinosaurs. I. Hate. Them. What part about dinosaurs is not terrifying? Their giant teeth? The sheer size of the monsters? The fact that they EAT people in every scenario that the two species co-exist? I was really getting into The Land of the Lost trailer tonight when what starts tearing across the screen in a massive blur of scales and drool? Oh yes. A dinosaur. I actually shrunk the window that the trailer was playing in so I could see other things in the background, and remember my mantra. Dinosaurs are not real they are not real they are not real they are not real. I'm not sure why they scare me so severely, it may be because I watched Jurassic Park at too young of an age. However, my current theory is that I may have been torn viciously into tiny pieces by a hungry T-Rex in a previous life.

I am, in fact, moderately concerned that if we do have multiple lives, each of mine have ended and will end at the claw or dagger-like tooth of some carnivorous beast. This seems to be a rational explanation for an otherwise irrational fear and I'll stick with it until a better one comes around.

But back to decision-making. It's possible that I will be faced with a decision in the near future, and I'd like to make it now, now, now, but there are too many unknowns. Which school will I get into? What if I don't get into any? Which school will T get into? What if we get into different schools? It's a whole big crapbag full of what-if's and darn it, I'm ready for some resolution. Of course, it will likely be months. So I try to put the day-dreaming (or day-what-if-ing) aside and concentrate on school now...yeah right.