Before

Today is my last day of being a relatively normal human. Tomorrow, I am an officially abnormal med student. Not that I think much is going to change between today and tomorrow, but it's the start of a definitive new chapter book of my life.

For instance, in what other realm of the world is it socially acceptable and even expected to cut up and dismantle a human body? Or to ask a perfect stranger how often they have sex and with whom and other sordidly private particulars? I'm on the threshold of a changing role. What's OK for me to do, ask, or say and what isn't, is about to change.

Really, I'm just excited to get started, get my books and my stethoscope. I'm not afraid of my changing role, I can't wait for it! But as I think about all the things I'm just barely beginning to step into, I suppose this day counts as a momentous occasion. It doesn't really feel momentous; just another day. But it's really the last day of me, before med school. My uncertainty will soon give way to more uncertainty, and maybe someday, secure confidence. Tomorrow is the first certain step toward that, where I will begin to look back at the naive before med school me of today...I wonder what's in store...